Find Out

I finally said aloud for the first time

A secret I knew about a friend of mine

I told myself I hadn't promised it

I'm telling myself I'm not just a fling

I'm not comparing you to anything

I thought that you were made of stronger shit

 

When I find out the reason

 

I felt my heart stop and start today

I walked you home and spilled it on the way

I'm finally getting back the rest of it

Socially akward isn't just a phase

You know the stigma and how much it weighs

Am I supposed to make the best of it?

 

When I find out the reason

 

When I find out I'll pretend

I'm not buried in my hands

I'll pretend I'm not the guy that I've been of late

I'll look you end the eyes and try to concentrate

I'll pretend to act surprised at what you have to say

I'm pretend when I find out